Not Easy

​Not easy living in a tomb...

Not easy pretending that all is well while you feel like hell...

Not easy keeping emotions on lock down...

Not easy living in the past when the future is screaming to meet you...

Not easy making up for past mistakes with someone who you know is great...
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Not easy walking around in a daze...

​Not easy sitting and waiting for God to answer your prayers…

Not easy holding on to dead emotions and relationships that don’t promote growth…

Not easy being me…

Not easy feeling like the caged bird…

Not easy hoping that your true love ,find it in their heart, to forgive you for past confusion and mistakes…

Not easy staying in a household where the devil is in control…

Not easy to smile when your world is spinning out of spiral and no one seems to care…

God is still in charge and I know and believe that these things will pass, still it’s not easy having the one you love share that love on an Equal basis…
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NOT EASY BEING ME…